10. Walled In
WALLED IN
Walled In by Professor A.L.I.
VERSE 1:
The pain of death can’t beat the pain of livin’
Trapped within the walls of this worldly prison
Trippin’ off clock ticks, watchin’ the time go by
Beyond days and weeks I contemplated suicide
Tried, yet denied access to the proper capillary
Stuck with Aries, astrology was contrary
Had no money, “Momma I was hungry,
Why did Dad leave us? Didn’t he love me?”
Born unlucky, my family was stuck with me
Through all the hardships they stuck with me
Luckily, moms was my spine and frontline
With faith so strong, make an eagle blind
Best cook on earth and the breadwinner
No ingredients but somehow we still had dinner
Then we lost the house, three of us homeless
Moved in with an abusive uncle, more stress
Every day I planned, homicidal day dreams
That one day soon, it’d be him that screams
Then Dad came back and we’re strugglin’
Stomach bubblin’ always in trouble and
I remember those days, daddy’s hustlin’
And the battles we had ‘cuz I’m Muslim
With new customs and, hang with new friends
Still poor, but the means justified my ends
VERSE 2:
I’m constantly at the Kaiser emergency room
Oh God, don’t take away my Pops so soon
A heart attack after a heart attack,
Was working so hard, he was hardly back
Stressed at home, carrying weight to school
What the f— are we gonna have to do for food?
Homies pockets full, flippin’ dime sacks
Got potnas in the game and they runnin’ crack
Young James (R.I.P.), remember his smile to this day
They ruined his face, point blank gun spray
That could’ve been me, but I had Mr. Lindsey
In my ear talking ‘bout Universities
Really!? Still rocking the same fit daily
One bed apartment, was a mansion for me
He brought us a box of cans for the needy
Were we really a case for charity?
Embarrassing. Momz made me promise
That ‘I’d be the first in the fam to go to college’
My head in the books, mad competition
Got my acceptance letter, with focused vision
I kept my vows, and went to Cal
Found out my Mom has cancer now…
Wow.
World Stops. And you have to ask, “Why Now?!?”
VERSE 3
Then the phone rings on a late Saturday
I can still remember my world shattering
Screams on the other side, dome was spinning
Chest felt tight, I couldn’t breathe mayn
What just happened? I wanted him back
My Pops just had his last heart attack
I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye
All I could now was reminisce and cry
I missed his last call, will always regret it
Then the battle started, cuz Pops mad indebted
Collection agencies coming at my Momma
Move back home and stop the drama
Daily grinding, got to make the bills go away
Everyday I’m hustlin’ and every night I pray
Moms battlin’ cancer, kept a smile on her face
Beggin’ God, “Just give us one more day!”
Lifetime of struggle, when comes the ease
Each day is a miracle, living for the peace
My sister’s a single mom now, what a gift
You’re a grandma mom, you needs to live
But chemo was rough, he body’s paralyzed
My sister and I, always at her bedside
Last thing in my arms, before she shook and died
Whispered in my ear, told me to grab that mic…
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